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popcorn white, satin finish

My life with Avi
did it really happen or
was it just a dream

Avi's gone two months
I can't remember details
just what love feels like

My life without him
Barely breathing between sobs
I paint my studio

Paint roller in hand
I think how he would have loved
To see me like this

Added by Anna Hertzberg on May 22, 2009 at 10:30pm — No Comments

the Buddha urged his monks to practice like this each morning:

I am of the nature to grow old. 

There is no way to escape growing old.

Instead of repressing it, invite it up, look directly at it.

I am of the nature to grow old, I must accept that.

I am of the nature to have ill-health.  

When I grow old, I will know it!

There is no way to escape having ill-health.

I am of the nature to die.  

There is no way to escape death.

All that is dear to me and everyone I love  are of the nature to change.… Continue

Added by bhasa leona on May 17, 2009 at 9:33pm — No Comments

"Autopsy in the Form of an Elegy" sent to me by Janet

by John Stone

In the chest
in the heart
was the vessel

was the pulse
was the art
was the love

was the clot
small and slow
and the scar
that could not know

the rest of you
was very nearly perfect.

Added by Anna Hertzberg on May 11, 2009 at 7:53pm — 1 Comment

mom haiku #1

In the car with mom
She: "I wish it had been me"
I: "I understand"

Added by Anna Hertzberg on May 11, 2009 at 12:40am — No Comments

Mother's Day

My sister-in-law

Moved to tears by Samir's song

I feel connected

She says that Avi

Drew out what was deep inside

And then applauded

It's two'n the morning

We cry for Avi, stirring

tomorrow's oatmeal

Now it's eight am

Breakfast table's set for three

That makes eleven

Same walk in the park

Why are we just three, not four

Passer-by's are quizzed.

He runs in the park

He asks: where is your… Continue

Added by Anna Hertzberg on May 11, 2009 at 12:30am — 1 Comment

Empty

I had guests today
My house filled up with people
Emptiness prevailed

Added by Anna Hertzberg on May 11, 2009 at 12:15am — No Comments

Avi-less Mother's Day

First time in so long
My tiny mother unhugged
She took it standing

Added by Anna Hertzberg on May 11, 2009 at 12:00am — 2 Comments

No oatmeal

At breakfast table
Your chair relentlessly bare
Hot oatmeal no more

Added by Anna Hertzberg on May 11, 2009 at 12:00am — 1 Comment

A Haiku I wrote today for Bob and US

You have not been gone
Just stepped out for a while
I think you're still here
Maybe a bird flying

by Marge

Added by Margaret(Marge) Wetherell Maycoc on May 10, 2009 at 11:22am — 2 Comments

Another encounter. . .

A Meeting

In a dream I meet
my dead friend. He has,
I know, gone long and far,
and yet he is the same
for the dead are changeless.
They grow no older.
It is I who have changed,
grown strange to what I was.
Yet I, the changed one,
ask: "How have you been?"
He grins and looks at me.
"I have been eating peaches
off some mighty fine trees."

- Wendell Berry

Added by Jennie Bireline on May 9, 2009 at 10:37am — No Comments

avi loved this writing by Sosan

Avi loved this writing The Great Way, from Hsin Hsin Ming, the Book of Nothing, by Sosan. Here is just the beginning … for full text go to ... www.deeshan.com/sosan.htm

The Great Way is not difficult for those who have no preferences. When love and hate are both absent everything becomes clear and undisguised. Make the smallest distinction, however, and heaven and earth are set infinitely apart. If you wish to see the truth then hold no opinion for or against. The struggle of what… Continue

Added by bhasa leona on May 6, 2009 at 11:00pm — 1 Comment

Kaveen's Poetry Recital-more info

Dear Friends,

Kaveen will have his poetry recital on May 27, 7:30-9:30pm in Riddle Hall (same place where we had the Celebration), Morganton. I am looking forward to see you there or, if you cannot make it, you are welcome to come to the house. Just give me a call to make sure I am in.

My #: 917 378 2378

Love,

Anna

forTHE MYSTICS SPEAK

ON WAKING UP

TO BEING HUMAN

An Evening of Spiritual Poetry

with Kaveen… Continue

Added by Anna Hertzberg on May 6, 2009 at 1:20pm — No Comments

Dreaming of Dadzo

Sunday nite, after telling mom that I'd been having dreams of dad but nothing impactful yet, I dreamt that I was in an academic setting taking a class in a big room filled with students. The professor asked me to the front of the class to demonstrate a point he was making. I stood before him, a non~descript academic type with glasses and stuffy clothes. He then took a dancing partner stance and told me we would dance to demonstrate. "Dance? I asked. Like Dancing with the Stars?" And BAM! In a… Continue

Added by ninaliza on April 29, 2009 at 11:35pm — No Comments

Words Like Bells

I found this beautiful poem in the house and I want to share it with you. I do not know who wrote it (would you please reveal yourself?), but it speaks so deeply for all of us...

Words Like Bells

Echoing Reminders Of How I Want

To Live My Life

Hand Movements Like Paintings

I Look Deeply Into Wondering

'From Where Does That Movement Come?'

There Are Those Who Read & Understand

And Those Who Live The Meaning

All I Can Say Is This

No One… Continue

Added by Anna Hertzberg on April 24, 2009 at 3:00pm — 1 Comment

To Bob's Clients, from Kaveen

“Knowing the world ends

when I exhale my last breath

I plant more bamboo.”

Bob Markman

Hello Friends.

My name is Kaveen Hutchison. I was a colleague and friend of Bob Markman. Actually, I met Bob while in graduate school and had the good fortune to have him be my mentor for many years, a role which evolved into a friendship I am tremendously grateful for. I imagine that most of you have similar feelings, for… Continue

Added by Anna Hertzberg on April 20, 2009 at 10:00pm — No Comments

Dear Friends

Dear friends,

It has been over five weeks and I am still at a loss for words. What happened is so enormous for me that I can only afford a glance at a time. If I were to allow in all that wants to come right this minute, I would drown in sorrow and maybe self pity and I know Avi would call it bad poetry and none of us wants to be on his "bad poets" list...

The truth is that (I make it up as I go...) my magical, custom-fitted playmate is gone and it is very, very sad. Yes he left… Continue

Added by Anna Hertzberg on April 20, 2009 at 10:30am — 2 Comments

Avi/Anna Memories

Scattered pictures of the smiles we left behind
Smiles we gave to one another
Beautiful water color memories
Of the way we were.

Added by Carol Taylor on April 14, 2009 at 7:53pm — 2 Comments

message from osho march 14th, 2009

this was in my email unopened

dated march 14th, 2009 ... a message from osho ...

In the Present, HereNow

A man who is aware cannot move in the past, because it is no more.

A man who is aware cannot move in the future, because it is not yet.

A man who is aware lives in the present, herenow.

Here is his only space, and now is his only time.

And because he is only herenow, time as such disappears.

Eternity is born, timelessness is… Continue

Added by bhasa leona on April 14, 2009 at 5:11pm — No Comments

Things I learned during my years with Bob

The main things after 25 years...That most of us fear death and lot of us are asleep. That we die how we live..Practice scrupulous self care..attachment can be addiction. It is our birthright to love ourselves just because we are here amd just as we are..Taking care of ourselves is taking care of our family;partner,children,grandchildren,friends,pets..We are here to enjoy all of this on Earth..We are here to laugh, have a good time, to play.. most all relationships take some work..That we do… Continue

Added by Margaret(Marge) Wetherell Maycoc on April 6, 2009 at 8:34pm — 2 Comments

Haiku

Hi,

Here are a few more of Avi's haiku. Enjoy.

Whether winter comes

of course is not the question.

How to keep warm is.

The truth of it all

I'm making up as I go.

How do you do it?

What I understand

is not what you understand,

Do you understand?

That's not how it was!

I shout frustrated and mad.

as if "was" was.

Going on with life

is extremely dangerous,

while looking… Continue

Added by Dillard Henderson on April 6, 2009 at 10:43am — No Comments

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