May 2009 Blog Posts (15)

While in Avi's house
Things around me speak to me
What should I tell them

That my heart is cracked?
That their fate is unsure?
I say sweet nothings

dear dadzo
I'm taking care of my teeth. Today I went for a permanent crown but
since it hurts so much, they want to test it for a root canal tomorrow.
I told them you would be happy that I was taking care of my teeth.
When I left, I sat in the car and sobbed. I'm compelled to share this with
you and the community for some reason. Tooth care meant a lot to you.
love and miss you so much
~beans

Bhasa,
Thank you for sharing this. So true..so beautiful..a reminder that nothing is wrong here..it all is the way it all is.
Heart's best, Susan M

My life with Avi
did it really happen or
was it just a dream

Avi's gone two months
I can't remember details
just what love feels like

My life without him
Barely breathing between sobs
I paint my studio

Paint roller in hand
I think how he would have loved
To see me like this

I am of the nature to grow old.


There is no way to escape growing old.

Instead of repressing it, invite it up, look directly at it.

I am of the nature to grow old, I must accept that.



I am of the nature to have ill-health. 


When I grow old, I will know it!

There is no way to escape having ill-health.



I am of the nature to die. 


There is no way to escape death.

All that is dear to me and everyone I love 
are of the nature to change.… Continue

by John Stone

In the chest
in the heart
was the vessel

was the pulse
was the art
was the love

was the clot
small and slow
and the scar
that could not know

the rest of you
was very nearly perfect.

In the car with mom
She: "I wish it had been me"
I: "I understand"

My sister-in-law

Moved to tears by Samir's song

I feel connected



She says that Avi

Drew out what was deep inside

And then applauded



It's two'n the morning

We cry for Avi, stirring

tomorrow's oatmeal



Now it's eight am

Breakfast table's set for three

That makes eleven



Same walk in the park

Why are we just three, not four

Passer-by's are quizzed.



He runs in the park

He asks: where is your… Continue

I had guests today
My house filled up with people
Emptiness prevailed

First time in so long
My tiny mother unhugged
She took it standing

At breakfast table
Your chair relentlessly bare
Hot oatmeal no more

You have not been gone
Just stepped out for a while
I think you're still here
Maybe a bird flying


by Marge

A Meeting

In a dream I meet
my dead friend. He has,
I know, gone long and far,
and yet he is the same
for the dead are changeless.
They grow no older.
It is I who have changed,
grown strange to what I was.
Yet I, the changed one,
ask: "How have you been?"
He grins and looks at me.
"I have been eating peaches
off some mighty fine trees."

- Wendell Berry

Avi loved this writing The Great Way, from Hsin Hsin Ming, the Book of Nothing, by Sosan. Here is just the beginning … for full text go to ... www.deeshan.com/sosan.htm



The Great Way is not difficult for those who have no preferences. When love and hate are both absent everything becomes clear and undisguised. Make the smallest distinction, however, and heaven and earth are set infinitely apart. If you wish to see the truth then hold no opinion for or against. The struggle of what… Continue

Dear Friends,

Kaveen will have his poetry recital on May 27, 7:30-9:30pm in Riddle Hall (same place where we had the Celebration), Morganton. I am looking forward to see you there or, if you cannot make it, you are welcome to come to the house. Just give me a call to make sure I am in.

My #: 917 378 2378

Love,

Anna







forTHE MYSTICS SPEAK

ON WAKING UP

TO BEING HUMAN

An Evening of Spiritual Poetry

with Kaveen… Continue